Since the summer.

As much as I would like to say that not much has happened since my last post- I would be wrong to do so. 

Over the last few months I have learned a great deal not only about myself, but about life in general. 

I have learned that even though college is the time to go out and experience and make mistakes and try things before you get out into the "real world," sometimes its not all worth it. Sure everyone has those experiences and mistakes but there comes a time in life when you have to realize its time to put it behind you, grow up and stop making those decisions. Mainly because as you get older you should be more mature and start finding those ideas as immature and irresponsible. 

Over the months I have learned that some people make this realization and others... well they  simply haven't hit the "grow up" stage. 

I learned a lot about myself as well. I have finally come to realize that I always put others before myself. Too many times I have second guessed my life plans and have been willing to change them for others, including boys to help save a relationship. But that's not life and in reality I would never truly be happy if I did that.

I have finally settled on a career choice and since the summer I have more determination than ever to fulfill those dreams.

The summer opened my eyes to career closer than I ever thought I could get to the Army besides enlisting. I learned of the Army Public Affairs Intern Program and even though I admit that I have had some doubt about it-- it is truly what I want to do. 

My life cannot revolve around others and my happiness cannot be put aside. As scary as the real world is to me and the idea of possibly failing... I don't want to live with regret or "what if's."

I am a junior in college, now 21, and realized I will be graduating in exactly one year. No one knows what their future holds for them-- but they can help predict the outcome by what they put into it.